Everyday Problems Associated with Alzheimer’s

The past week has been a full one. We celebrated Valentine’s Day by attending a concert by the Knoxville Symphony on Saturday night, the Symphony League’s Valentine’s Ball on Sunday night, lunch at Casa Bella on Valentine’s Day, and the UT Symphony that night. These were good times for both of us and serve to remind us how much we can continue to enjoy despite Kate’s Alzheimer’s looming over us. We continue to put a special emphasis on our relationship which seems more precious to us with every passing day.

On the downside, on Tuesday morning Kate took a walk around the neighborhood with one of our neighbors, Lucy Grayson. During that walk Lucy commented on another neighbor and her husband, Barry and Mary Jane Winters. Mary Jane also has Alzheimer’s which we have been aware for 2-3 years. Lucy indicated that she felt sorry for Mary Jane and then said, “I feel especially sorry for Barry.”

These are the kind of things that occur routinely, but they have a special meaning when you also are plagued with the disease. It makes me think once again that people need to be more careful about what they say.

Kate and I had lunch together and then she left in her car to run a couple of errands before returning home. I received a phone call from her a little later. She left a voice mail as I was in a meeting or phone call at the time. The message was a bit garbled but I could tell she had had an accident of some type. I sent her a text and asked if she were all right. She answered quickly that she was; so I called to find out what had happened. She told me she was pulling into a parking space and misjudged the distance to the car on her right and had knocked out her front headlight. When I got home that night I discovered that it had not only broken the right signal light but had also damaged the front fender, the right front passenger door, the right back door which will not open, and the right rear fender.

We sat down and had a glass of wine and discussed the events of the day. That is when she told me about Lucy’s comments that morning as well as how she was feeling about the accident. We didn’t say much. It was obvious to me that she was shaken by the experience. It is just one further sign of her inability to do anything right. I try to reassure her when these things happen, but we both know her situation is getting worse and affecting lots of things besides memory.

Last night at Kate’s suggestion we built a fire, had a glass of wine, and brought in Chinese for dinner. It was a good time for conversation. We find a lot of our conversation relate to things we are thankful for. I think this is our unconscious way of counterbalancing the trauma of the Alzheimer’s. It was a very nice evening. One of the things she said when we talked was that she had lied about something and wanted to explain. She went on to say that she had indicated on Tuesday night that she had not been bothered by Lucy’s comments, but the truth was that she had been bothered by the comment that Lucy felt even sorrier for Barry than for Mary Jane. She didn’t say this, but she doesn’t want to be a burden on me.

On a slightly different note, many decisions are influenced by Kate’s condition. For example, I have been planning to buy a new car next year and thought that I might even delay a little longer. My idea was that Kate may not be able to drive much longer and that I might trade in both cars when I buy a new one. This changed this week when I have significant repair bills on my car and have decided that I should buy a new car now. Kate asked me if I were planning to pass her car along to me. I told her I was not as it had so much more mileage than hers. I got to thinking later that she might have been thinking that her station wagon was getting to be too much for her and that she might do better with my car. Now I am beginning to wonder if getting her a smaller car might be an intermediate step. At the moment, I have decided against that.