After a rough start yesterday morning, we had another pleasant day with Kevin. Kate was a little harder to wake. That may have been a result of her getting up early two days in a row. When she did get up, she was a bit grumpy. She seemed more herself at lunch, but when we got home she was tired. I made a trip to the bank. When I returned, I suggested that we watch a little of Les Miserables. I was hoping that might perk her up. It didn’t work. That was the first time I had seen her react with so little interest. She finally got in bed, and I turned it off. That gave us another thirty minutes to get ready to leave for dinner.
The highlight of the day was having a birthday dinner with friends from church. One of them had been involved with the youth program when Kevin was in high school. He has kept up with her over the years. We have gotten together with her and her husband several other times when Kevin has been with us. We had lots of laughs and good conversation. Kate felt very comfortable and participated in the conversation to the extent possible. Several times she had to ask us who or what we were talking about. It is very difficult for her to follow conversations as they flow quickly from one person to another. I was glad to see her asking for us to clarify things. That is something I have never her seen her do with the people we sit with at Casa Bella on our music nights. There she remains silent and never understands what we were talking about.
As she changes, I am adapting as well. Knowing that she might wake up and not realize where she is, I started leaving the doors open into the family room. Previously, I have been sensitive to waking her and tried to minimize any noise and light from disturbing her. Now I believe it is more important for her to hear me and know where to find me. I am also going to be checking on her more frequently. I’ve also thought about putting a monitor in her room connected to a speaker in the kitchen so that I might hear her more easily if she should call me. It’s not that I have tried to pay close attention to her in the past. It’s just that I feel a need to increase the attention as her memory gets worse.
Over the past week or so, she has become even more dependent on me to help with her clothes. For the past four or five days, I have been getting her clothes out for her and sometimes helping her put them on. One of her biggest problems is remembering where her clothes are. I put them on the chair beside her bed. That is what she had been doing before I took over.
Sometimes she doesn’t notice them at all. More frequently, she sees them but moves them to a different place and often separates them. Then I have to help her find them. When she can’t find then, and I am not there, she goes to the drawers in my bedside table and/or to my closet where she gets into a variety of my things. I may have mentioned that the other day she had put on a pair of my winter pajama pants and was going to wear them instead of the ones I picked out for her. I came in after she had them on and showed her the ones I had chosen.
I see significant changes that sadden me. At the same time, I am glad that we have so many happy moments. I know there are more sad ones coming. We are both adapting. I am glad to say that I am not yet overwhelmed by the changing responsibilities, but I know I will need to have extra help at some point. That may come sooner than I would like.
