Late Saturday night Kate and I returned from Jackson Hole, Wyoming, where we had rented a house to celebrate our 50th anniversary with our children and grandchildren. Everyone was able to be there which is a very rare event. In fact, this is the first time all of us have been together for a full week. I am glad to report that it went swimmingly well – at least from our standpoint. I also believe the others had a great time as well.
I thought that Kate got along well. I suspect that no one may have been suspicious about her Alzheimers. She is more withdrawn than she used to be and did not pretend to help in the kitchen which could have been a clue. I guess I will find out when the day finally comes that we make it known to them. It would not surprise me that when that happens they will have already been suspicious.
This has made me reflect once again on the timing of telling them. From Kate’s standpoint, she would just as soon never tell. They would simply come to realize it the way I did with my mother. On the other hand, I has meant that I have been able to take advantage of our time together. I wouldn’t give anything for this time. We have been very conscious and deliberate about making the most of our time. The interesting thing is that despite Kate’s own frustrations over having AD, she thinks she will have more time than I believe she will have.
By the way, she commented on how caring Jesse and Greg were during the week. She wondered if I might not have told them. I told her that I hadn’t said a word. I think they were responding to the nature of the hiking trails we were on. We all noticed that she is less stable. They also know that she is geographically challenged.
Kate was quite careful to ask me for help when she needed something. For example, she didn’t know where any of the kitchen utensils were kept; so when she fixed her cereal in the morning she needed help identifying the right drawer. She asked me discretely, and I don’t think anyone noticed.
One reason I don’t think people noticed is that no one has said anything to me. If they know, surely they would say something to me.
I will write more later when I have a moment. I want to comment on the grandchildren and the letters I had for her.
