Today marks our third day at home after the cruise. I continue to question my plans for a Mediterranean cruise that I booked for May. I have serious doubts though I haven’t done it officially. I will probably do it this week. Being home has been much more relaxing. I haven’t felt the same degree of stress to take care of Kate. She also seems to have enjoyed being here. We have been back to some of our favorite restaurants. We went to Lowe’s after lunch on Sunday. She bought another $145 worth of plants. Then she worked in the yard for four hours. It was good for her.
We still don’t talk directly about her Alzheimer’s, but occasional oblique references occur. Today, for example, she remarked about something she had done. I said, “”Don’t we have fun?” She said, “”Well, I wouldn’’t go that far.” I said, “”At least you keep your sense of humor.” This afternoon she couldn’t find her iPad. I found it. She was so relieved. She said, “”At least I didn’t lose it.” She said it seriously, not as a joke. It conveys to me how much frustration she experiences over misplacing things all the time.
I have noticed other signs of her acknowledging that she looks to me to see if it is all right to do things in much the way a child might do. One of those occurred yesterday when she had picked out something to wear. She asked, “”Is this all right?” I told her it was perfect.” Tonight as I was getting ready to take a shower about 8:30, she said, “”I am going to bed. Is that all right?” I told her she could go to bed anytime she wants.
