Good Times | - Part 17

June 10, 2018June 11, 2018

Our Day in Nashville: Part 1, Lunch with the Robinsons

Yesterday we made a day trip to Nashville to visit friends. We had lunch with the Robinsons. Our friendship goes back to TCU, and we have visited back and forth between Knoxville and Nashville for almost 47 years. Our children were very young, and we carted the various paraphernalia likes cribs, diapers, and snacks for an overnight stay. As we have aged, we’ve made the trips much simpler. We have lunch out and then go back to the house for conversation before going back home for dinner. Yesterday’s visit was simpler than that. We met the Robinsons for lunch and dessert and then went on to visit Kate’s best friend, Ellen, who now lives in a memory care facility.

Given Kate’s recent changes, I feel it especially important for us to be with old friends as much as possible. I was especially pleased that our visit with Tom and Angie went so well. In an email this morning, Tom said they thought Kate was pretty much the same as she has been during other recent visits. I agreed with him. She was an active participant in our conversation as she was at lunch with the Greens the other day. I continue to be encouraged at how well Kate does in these kind of social situations. I am hopeful this ability will remain with her for a good while.

The Robinsons were already there when we walked into the restaurant. Kate hadn’t remembered we were meeting them and said, “What a nice surprise.” Of course, I should have reminded her as we walked into the restaurant. This is one of those times I had talked about it a number of times including in the car. It just slipped my mind to remind her just before we saw them. It’s a good illustration of the fact that I can often treat her as though she can remember. She is so normal in other respects that I just forget.

I received an email this morning from my former TCU roommate, Bruce Morton. He and Tom and I send multiple emails to one another daily. He asked if Kate remembered the Robinsons. I told him that is a good question and that it involved what it means to know someone. There is no question that she has trouble remembering their names. Even after spending almost two hours with them yesterday, she asked me their names when we got in the car to leave. She had done the same thing on the drive to Nashville.

She greeted them exactly the same way she would have done in years past. I am sure, however, that she would not have been able to remember our past visits together, that they have children, where they live, etc. She recognized them as people that she has known before. It’s an emotional connection that remains even though all of the names and facts associated with our relationship have faded away. It is something that I did not understand when she was first diagnosed nor quite a while after that. I am glad to have discovered this. It has extended our ability to get together with friends much longer than I would have predicted 7 ½ years ago.

June 2, 2018

Another Musical Highlight

As Kate continues to decline, it makes me happy when I see her enjoy life. Nothing else has the impact of musical performances. What makes it even more special is that we share this pleasure together. This week we have had four evenings of musical entertainment at home. I purchased two DVDs that arrived on Monday. One was Fiddler on the Roof. The other was Les Miserables. We watched Fiddler on Monday and Tuesday night. We watched Les Mis on Wednesday and Friday night. I can’t remember a time when she has been so demonstrative in her expressions of pleasure. There were moments in each musical that made her a bit teary.

I should add that it’s not just the music itself that moves us. We both enjoy the visual aspects of productions, the staging, the lighting, and, especially, watching outstanding actors giving their all. The video of Les Mis is not the theater production. It was the 25^th anniversary concert at the Barbican Centre in London. They pulled out all the stops for this one. They brought back former actors for each of the major roles who joined in rousing performances of some of the signature music. This is our favorite musical, and this production was spectacular. I would have loved it had I been alone, but to share this moment with Kate at this point in in her Alzheimer’s was something to treasure.

May 29, 2018

Good Times with Bitter Sweet Moments

Once again, I am happy to report that the balance of our day yesterday was as good as the start. After returning from lunch, Kate rested for a little over an hour. Then we went to a movie. This was a bit unusual in that it was a movie we had seen just last week, RBG. Kate hadn’t remembered it, but she had enjoyed it. Since we didn’t have any special Memorial Day plans, I decided to take her again. We liked it just as much the second time, and I appreciated the artistry with which the story was told even more than before.

As we were getting out of the car before the movie, she again asked my name, and I told her. She is so very natural when she asks me. She shows no sign of being bothered by having to ask nor does she seem to be concerned about hurting me. Other than the question itself, she doesn’t sound like we imagine a person with Alzheimer’s would sound just childlike.

While we were at lunch, I received two DVDs from Amazon. One was Fiddler on the Roof. The other was Les Miserables. Last night we watched a portion of Fiddler. Although she was working puzzles on her iPad throughout the movie, she was following it and enjoying the music. I did as well. This is rather unusual since she hasn’t expressed much interest in TV programs or movies in a long time. It was a nice way to end the day.

Kate was already in bed as I pulled back the covers on my side to get in bed when she said, “Do I have a name?” I told her she did and went over to her side of the bed, sat down and told her. I said that she had a special name because it was a family name. That prompted her to say how much she loved all her aunts and uncles. She was in one of her talkative moods again. She started to talk about our relationship. She has a set of things she recites. She is glad we met and how fortunate that we have been. Last night she also talked about how comfortable she is when she is with me and how easy it is for her to say things to me.

I continue to interpret her behavior in light of what I have read in The Dementia Handbook. The loss of her memory is dramatically expressed in her failure to recall names and facts, but her senses are alive. Every few minutes as we watched Fiddler, she would say something about what a good movie it is and how much she liked the music. More importantly to me, she still has special feelings about our relationship and me. And, as she has said, “I can’t even remember your name.”

May 25, 2018May 25, 2018

A Nice Finish to the Day

We didn’t do anything special, but it was a really good day. Were it not for the regular memory issues, I couldn’t have told you that Kate was any different than the way she had been before Alzheimer’s. She has seemed sharp as a tack. One of those memory issues was clear at lunch. She mentioned her mother. Then she asked me if I like her mother. I said, “Of course, your mother and I were buddies.” That is true we had gotten along well during the early days of our courtship. The she said, “I can’t even picture what she looked like.” I told her I would show her a picture when we got home. Ken will be glad to know that the photo album he recently gave her is coming in handy.

She surprised me last night and this morning. She turned on the TV, something she hasn’t done in months. I thought she had forgotten how. In the past, she has had trouble getting the channels she likes. I have been setting it on NBC each night knowing that she used to turn on the Today Show every morning.

In addition, she made up the bed beautifully this morning. She has been making it up recently but not nearly as well as she did today. Not only that, she has been picking up her clothes and hanging them in the closet.

I don’t know what has made the difference, but it is nice to see. We returned a little while ago from our Friday night pizza place. We are now finishing off the day in the family room where I am playing an Andre Previn album. All is well.

May 25, 2018May 25, 2018

Off to a Good Start

Kate is in an unusually cheerful mood this morning. Since she got ready for the day, she hasn’t shown any of the slowness that she often feels in the morning. She has also teased me a little bit. In addition, she wasn’t the least bit annoyed that it took me a little bit longer to get my things together after she was ready.

On our way to Panera, she asked, “How many grandchildren do we have?” I told her and then asked if she would like me to tell her their names. She said yes, and I went through each of them as I normally do. I started to tell her about our son’s children. She asked where they live. I told her they live in Lubbock. When I mentioned that Brian, our oldest, had just finished his freshman year at TCU, she was as happy as if this were the first time I had told her. To her, it really was.

At Panera, she looked up from her iPad and said, “What is your last name?” This is becoming rather common now. I guess it is understandable since she rarely has any reason to use it whereas she does use my first name which she is also forgetting occasionally.

Today, we have a sitter coming at 1:00, so we’ll leave soon and get some lunch. It looks like another good day.

Postscript (3:15 p.m.)

Normally, I don’t tell Kate that I am about to leave and the sitter is coming. I just wait until the sitter arrives. Then I say something like, “Well, I guess it’s time for me to go to Rotary and/or the Y.” She seems to accept that without showing any great concern. Her recent comments about liking to go where I go have made me wonder if she is telling me that she would rather be with me than the sitter. On at last one occasion a few months ago, she said just that.

Anyway, my concern led me to tell her in advance that I would be going to the Y. She responded just as I hoped. She wasn’t bothered at all. She just said she would see me later. I was relieved. I consider that an additional sign of how good she has felt all day today.

May 22, 2018

Success at the Movies

Movies have played a significant role in our entertainment. That has been especially true for the first five or six years after Kate’s diagnosis. About a year ago, that began to change when she could no longer appreciate them. I was surprised that she had enjoyed them for so long. She hasn’t been able to follow a plot for at least three or four years, perhaps longer.

Among the things I have learned about dementia is that people diagnosed with the disease retain many abilities even when their memories fade. For example, they can often read emotions of those around them. I suspect that ability has helped Kate appreciate movies that she doesn’t understand. She gets a feeling for the characters. When she likes them and the situations in which they are involved, she becomes engaged. She has a positive experience. She can also relate to people and situations that are important. For example, she liked Darkest Hour. She recognized Churchill as an important historical figure. She knew that World War II was a horrific event of our time. She could sense that the movie dealt with significant aspects of the war.

Unfortunately, I have found fewer and fewer movies that really engage her, but I keep trying. Yesterday, I had a success. Normally, the sitter would come while I attend my weekly Rotary meeting and then exercise at the Y; however, I received a call from the agency that Anita was sick. They were happy to send someone new, but I decided to skip Rotary and the Y and spend the afternoon with Kate.

Over the weekend, I had received an email from Kate’s brother, Ken. He said that he and Virginia had gone to see RBG and liked it. Sometime within the past year, I read Sisters in Law. It focused on the lives of Sandra Day O’Connor and Ruth Bader Ginsberg. I have always enjoyed biographies and found both justices to have led fascinating and inspiring lives. That and Ken’s recommendation prompted me to take advantage of a free afternoon with Kate to see the movie. I am so glad I did.

The film provides an engaging account of Ginsberg’s life and personality. Her story is an interesting one. I was especially pleased that Kate enjoyed it. As we walked out of theater, I said, “Isn’t it amazing how someone so slight in stature and so soft spoken in her own personal style could achieve such success.” Kate said, “Who is that?” I said, “Ruth Bader Ginsberg, the woman the film was about.” She said, “I want to see that film.”

What’s truly amazing is how Kate could have watched the whole movie about Ginsberg, love it, and then not recognize who I was talking about. It is a beautiful illustration of how she can enjoy a movie that she can’t understand. I hope I’ll find others that will give her an equal amount of pleasure. That keeps me happy.

May 22, 2018May 23, 2018

Still Enjoying Musical Theater

Kate’s memory continues to disappear, but we are still enjoying some of the things that have been important to us throughout our marriage. One of those is attending live performances. Her enthusiasm for some things has lessened during the time we have lived with Alzheimer’s, but we both get a boost when we attend most musical events.

This past Sunday afternoon we attended Hairspray at one of our local theaters. We had originally seen it on Broadway and liked it. That made me wonder if we would feel the same about a local production. I had no need to worry. It was outstanding. Each time we attend an event like this, I also wonder how Kate will enjoy it. At some point, I know she won’t. We haven’t reached that point yet. I hope it is a long way off.

By chance, we sat next to a couple that we see at three different restaurants we frequent. We arrived early enough to get a little better acquainted with them. What began as a musical experience also became a social occasion. It was a banner day for us. Experiences like this go a long way in helping us to maintain a positive outlook about life.

May 21, 2018

A Rare Moment

Over the past 2-3 years, Kate has lost her interest in television. I suspect that is because it’s too hard for her to follow. Until the past year or so, she sometimes turned on the Today Show in the morning. She rarely, if ever, turns the TV on these days. I record the PBS Newshour and watch it after we return home from dinner. She sits with me and works on her iPad. I sometimes watch Nature as well. When I do, she occasionally looks up and notices something that catches her eye. Otherwise, she devotes her attention to the puzzles on her iPad.

Thus, it is something of a rarity that we watched some of the Royal wedding that took place on Saturday. No, we didn’t get up at 4:00 a.m. I recorded an ETV/BBC recording that began at 9:00 a.m. After lunch, we watched the portion that involved the wedding itself. Prior to that Kate had been working on her iPad. She put it down when Harry and William took their places in the chapel and didn’t pick it up again until Harry and Meghan departed in their coach.

Neither of us is a follower of the Royals, but both of us took interest in this wedding. I can’t speak for Kate, but events like this have taken a different place in my life since her diagnosis. During the wedding I was reminded of the wedding vows we took that were very much the same ones as those of the Royal Couple. In particular, the words “in sickness and in health . . . till death do us part” were more meaningful now than at the time we said those same words in 1963. I trust that I am now and will continue to honor that commitment. I have no doubts that I will. It was a rare moment for us to be watching TV together and a touching one for me.

May 17, 2018

Travel Days 5 and 6: San Angelo

We left Lubbock on Tuesday right after an early lunch and drove to San Angelo where we are spending two nights with Kate’s brother, Ken, and his wife, Virginia. We arrived in time to have a pleasant afternoon in their home catching up on the happenings in our lives since we were last with them in January. We didn’t have much time together on that occasion. That is why I wanted to arrange another visit. Given the changes Kate has been making over the past few months, I’m not sure if we will be able to make it back again. Virginia fixed dinner using two popular recipes of Kate’s and Ken’s mother, chicken spaghetti and asparagus casserole. It was a perfect way to celebrate being together again.

Yesterday we spent the morning at home. Kate slept a good bit. She joined us about 10:30. We looked at some old family photos and chatted more before going out to lunch. We relaxed at home during the afternoon and went out for a nice meal at a restaurant overlooking the area near their home.

She continues to forget where we are. She woke up around 4:00 a.m. yesterday and went to the bathroom. When she returned, she said she was going upstairs. Ken and Virginia live in a single-story home. I told her we were at Ken and Virginia’s. She said, “What are we doing here?” I explained that we were visiting a couple of days after having spent a few days with Kevin and his family.

Despite this confusion, she has enjoyed herself. Both nights, we watched a DVD on the history of Fort Worth. Since that is where Kate and Ken are from, and I lived there while a student at TCU, it was of special interest to us.

This afternoon we return to Lubbock where we will have dinner with Kevin and his family. We will spend the night and then fly out to Knoxville tomorrow.