For quite some time I have been reporting Kate’s difficulty remembering names and places as well as her confusion. That makes it a challenge for me to convey how she is different now than in the past. Perhaps the best way is for me to say that I don’t think she is on a plateau but gradually declining with respect to both her memory and confusion. There have been two occasions in the past few days that particularly struck me. One of those occurred yesterday morning.
Although it was not a day for the sitter, I wanted her to get up before noon so that she could get ready without my rushing her. I also wanted us to have a relaxed lunch before her 2:00 appointment for a massage. About 10:00, I put on some music to help wake her. It was 10:45 before I tried to get her up. She opened her eyes when I sat down on the bed. She smiled and waved to me with her hand. I asked about her getting up for lunch. She said she didn’t want to get out of bed that she was too comfortable and relaxed. I didn’t leave her bedside. We began a conversation that was one of those I take as a sign of a new stage of her decline. Let me try to capture some of flavor of our conversation.
KATE: What’s your name?
RICHARD: Richard.
KATE: No, your full name.
RICHARD: Richard Lee Creighton.
KATE: Say it again.
RICHARD: Richard Lee Creighton
KATE: Let me say it. Richard. (unable to remember the rest) What’s your name again?
RICHARD: Richard Lee Creighton.
KATE: What’s my name?
RICHARD: Kate Franklin Creighton
KATE: That sounds right. What’s your name?
RICHARD: Richard Lee Creighton.
KATE: Say it again slowly.
RICHARD: Richard Lee Creighton.
KATE: What’s my mother’s name?
RICHARD: Elizabeth Franklin. Does that sound familiar?
KATE: No. Did you know her?
RICHARD: Yes, and she was a very special lady.
KATE: (Looking surprised) Is she gone?
RICHARD: Yes, she died 13 years ago, but she lived a long life. She was 90 when she died.
KATE: What’s your name?
RICHARD: Richard Lee Creighton.
KATE: What are you to me?
RICHARD: I am your husband.
KATE: (Surprised) You are? What was I thinking? (joking)
RICHARD: Yes, and we have two children. Our daughter is 50.
KATE: How old am I?
RICHARD: You’re 77, but you will be 78 in less than a month.
We talked like this for 15-20 minutes before I said I would be glad to help her out of bed. She didn’t want to, but she let me get her up and take her to the bathroom. While she was showering, she asked my name, her name, and the nature of our relationship. As I noted before, she asked these things without any sign that she was disturbed. She just couldn’t remember them and wanted me to tell her.
We went to lunch at Panera. While we were there she asked some of these questions again as well as “Where are we?” By the time we finished eating, she quit asking all of the questions. I don’t know that is because she remembered or she was wrapped up in her puzzles. On the way home from her massage, she called me by name.
As in one other experience like this she tended to accept that I was her husband but my telling her did not bring back any memory of that. Neither did my name. Not only that but the duration of her confusion lasted longer than usual. More subjectively, it also seems that the way she looked and expressed herself seemed like it was much harder for her to make sense of everything.
We spent two hours at home before going to jazz night at Casa Bella. During that time she seemed quite normal. She didn’t ask any names. She did ask for help with her puzzles several times.
As always, she enjoyed the evening at Casa Bella. She was somewhat more talkative and confident. When we got there, we saw the couple that we went to Flat Rock with last week. We quickly got into two separate conversations. The husband and I talked while Kate talked with his wife. I wish I could have participated in both conversations because Kate was very animated and engaged. She continued to be talkative after we got to our regular table. It was a little noisier last night, and it was harder for her to understand what people were saying. As she has done in recent situations like this, she kept asking us to repeat what we were saying. I really feel for her at times like this. She was ready to participate, but she couldn’t follow what we were talking about.
On the way home, she asked where we were going. I told her we were going to our house. She was surprised and said, “How can we do that?” I told her we were already in Knoxville. That was another surprise for her. When I asked where she thought we were, she said she didn’t have any place in mind. She was pleased to be going home. In a few minutes, she asked where we were going to stay. Again, I told her we would stay in our own home.
When we drove down our driveway, she was puzzled. Then the garage door opened, she said, “Oh, I recognize this.” Once inside she followed me back to the bedroom. She started to close the door to the family room. I told her she could leave it open, that we were the only ones here. She said, “That’s a shame.” She was looking at our house as a hotel or some other form of lodging and not our home. She wished other people could be here to enjoy it. Apart from that confusion, she seemed very normal and showed no sign that she didn’t know me.
At 6:00 this morning she got up to go to the bathroom. I went around to her side of the bed to help her as I have been doing recently. I was surprised that she didn’t sound either groggy or confused. She didn’t want my help getting out of bed or walking her to the bathroom though I did walk with her. She said, “I really didn’t need you but thank you.”
After walking back to her side of the bed, she said, “I just want to look out here a minute.” She was looking at our back yard. She said, “It’s beautiful. They’ve thought about everything.” She still thought she was staying some other place than our home. Then she got in bed. The timing of her trip to the bathroom was just right this morning. It was about two hours later than yesterday. That suits me better. I had had a good night’s sleep.
