It’s been a month since my last post. This break is by far the longest I have had over the course of Kate’s Alzheimer’s. Most of those breaks have been in recent years. I attribute much of that to the fact that our lives have become more routine since Kate has required total care. That began after her hospitalization with Covid in November 2020. Her activities and behavior are more similar from day to day than they were before. That gives me less to talk about.
However, more than our routine life keeps me from writing as much. My life is much busier now than it used to be. Except for 2-3 hours a day when I go to lunch, run errands, meet friends, and attend activities in our retirement community, I am with Kate. Some of that time involves actual care but much of it is simply enjoying my time with her.
The most important thing that has happened since the first of the year is that Kate has steadily shown improvement. She has enjoyed many “Happy Moments” over the past few weeks. I have come to expect at least some of those every day.
Kate’s behavior regularly reminds us that she understands much of what other people say. Sometimes, her smiles and laughter suggest that she is enjoying the conversation around her. She knows far more than most of us are aware.
One of the changes that has occurred is her mood in the morning. Beginning during what I would call the middle stage of her Alzheimer’s, she often awoke confused or frightened. Over the years, the fright seemed to diminish, but she awoke in what I call her “neutral” state or mood. During that time she doesn’t smile, talk, or respond to what is said to her.
During the past five to seven months, Kate has begun to smile and talk far more in the morning. That has changed my schedule and is another reason I don’t write as many new posts. Now, I spend more of my morning time with her. I am writing this post sitting up in bed beside her. She has been in and out of sleep, in a happy mood, and talking a little. I just looked over at her. Her eyes were closed, but she had a big smile on her face. I leaned down and put my head on her shoulder, and she chuckled. That is a typical response when I express any form of affection. I love these moments, and we have many of them.
It has been 13 ½ years since her diagnosis and 18-20 years since we noticed the first signs of her Alzheimer’s. I am mindful that these moments won’t last forever, and I feel a strong desire to spend as much time as I can with her. We still enjoy life and each other. How fortunate we are.
