It has been a reasonably good day today. For me it has been better than for Kate although even my enjoyment of the day has been lessened by her being so tired. I am hoping that is a result of my giving her a Dramamine this morning to prevent seasickness.
Yesterday we had gotten to the port for embarkation just before 1:00 p.m. We quickly learned that the cruise ship had gotten in some five hours late as a result of the Coast Guard’s having told them to help in a search and rescue operation. A boat with at least 10 passengers was missing or in trouble. As dawn came, the Coast Guard let our ship go and started using planes. They ultimately found ten men.
We waited with the other passengers in a hangar-like structure that seemed anything but what you would imagine for people going on a dream cruise. Many, if not most, of us had not eaten lunch. Finally, they brought in cookies, cheese and peanut butter cracker, and other snacks.
We boarded shortly after 4:00. Then we had to go through the safety drill. After that, the ship discovered an electrical problem. We didn’t leave until 9:00 or so. Kate was asleep by the time we left. We are in open seating on this trip. We went to eat at 6:00 and got a table with a couple (father and daughter) from Cincinnati and Maryland.
This morning I got up shortly before seven. I had breakfast. When I came back Kate was getting ready. She had slept almost 11 hours. I continue to notice her need to rest and am trying to see that she gets it on this trip. She wanted some breakfast; so I took her up to the breakfast buffet where we sat with a couple from Cincinnati. They were both interesting people. He was a retired counseling psychologist who had spent a large part of his career as a forensic psychologist working with the FBI and other law enforcement agencies. His specialty was in hypnosis. He had some interesting stories.
We got back to the room at 9:28, and Kate immediately got into bed and pulled the covers over her. We had planned to go to a 10:00 presentation on the shore excursions. She was resting so well at 9:55 that I asked her if she would like to stay or go. She nodded that she wanted to stay.
When I got back, I knew she might be hungry and asked her if she would like to go to a café on the Observation Deck where she could get a bite and something to eat. She seemed very lethargic and walked unusually slowly as we went to the other end (bow) of the ship and up two flights. She seemed a bit in a fog when I was trying to determine what she wanted. She had a Coke and a small piece of lemon cake. She found a place to sit, and I brought the Coke and cake to her. She ate the cake quickly and asked for “another muffin.” I went back and got her a small cupcake. By the time I returned with it, she seemed to be perking up. I had planned to go upstairs and use the treadmill while she worked jigsaw puzzles on her iPad and crossword puzzles. I felt a little uncomfortable leaving her because I thought she might be experiencing seasickness. In a few minutes she seemed to be better. I decided not to go to the exercise room but to walk around the ship instead. After each trip I came back to check on her. That seemed to work. After walking 45 minutes, I went back and got her for lunch.
She seemed in a daze as we looked at the various options in the buffet line. She ultimately got blackened Mahi Mahi and rice, nothing else. I got a salad. When we finished, we went to a movie. It had already started and we could only find single seats. I sat on the front row, she in the back. It was quite warm; so I worried about her comfort the entire movie. I was concerned that she might need to leave, not recall where I was seated, walk out, and get lost. As it turned out, she was warm but had been interested in the movie. She said, “I can’t wait to read the book.” She frequently says this after a movie but never does. In fact, she reads almost nothing.
I am quite interested in seeing how things go tomorrow. We have another day at sea before reaching Sint Maarten day after tomorrow. One of the things I am considering is eating lunch in the dining room. That would make it easier for her and for me. We could simply give our order to the server and he would bring the food to us. I am still thinking about shore excursions. Several of the ones seem interesting, but I don’t want to rush her in getting up in the morning. Most seem to depart at 8:30 or 9:00. Anything before ten seems too early for her. I may try one just as an experiment. If it goes well, I might try another.
She has two symptoms that are of significance at the moment. One is being tired. She needs plenty of rest. To me this seems a bit of a sign of her drifting away. It is sad. The other is an inability to focus. Mostly, I am thinking of visual focus. It is as though she sees a thousand different things in front of her and can’t pick out the thing that she wants (for example, a good item) or that I want to show her. I believe this also involves auditory focus as well. I don’t think she hears a lot of what is said in conversations around her. She just doesn’t notice things that she would noticed in the past.
For example, I bought her a pair of slacks and two tops for the trip. I did this on my own without her and didn’t tell her. I packed them in my suitcase. When I unpacked last night, I hung them in the closet. This morning as she was getting ready to dress, I point out the two tops. She picked one of them to wear today. I didn’t tell her they were new or that I had bought them for her. She acted as though they were clothes she already had. For the first time, I am really seeing more dramatic symptoms of her illness. They are not surprises, but I find it very saddening because her decline has been so gradual that I almost expected it to last forever. Of course, not really.